Learning

I can still smell your hair
See your eyes, hear your laughter
And hope I'm not wrong
To trust in near after.

I'm not missing
Still living
Still growing
Still giving.

Life goes without us
It moves as it must
It turns all directions
It thrives on mistrust.

And people move forward
Or sideways, or down
Blind to instruction
And living makes frown.

It's no wonder I'm lost
And confused and ungrateful
I don't understand
That I'm truly unstable.

I let life defeat me
It's breaking my soul
And before it's much longer
This human grows old.

Now I know life's age
Is only a number
But it seems I get tired
Just counting from under.

I keep right on going
Count to ten when I'm asked
And look all directions
While I dream of the past.

My life is of learning
I'm taught as I'm showed
Understanding is risky
I go on as I'm told.

So as I keep walking
And hope for a run
I know the faster I go
The closer I'm done.

You see I'm still living
I've learned from my wonder
Real life is from sharing
And taking of plunder.

I'll ask all the questions
And learn from the answers
And use what's been learned
At my turn at this cancer

Still looking at you
And holding and smelling
And thanking above
For a friend that's good telling

And I'll share all my plunder
And wonder and blame
And hope that life doesn't
Extinguish our flame.